Am I a control freak?

Sending my child to school is hard. I mean, I love all that he is learning, could NOT be doing a better job than his sweet and encouraging, focus on the positive teacher. He needs all those friends and life experiences. But, I admit, it is hard for me not to know and observe all that he is doing and saying and all that is being done and said to him. These are life cycles, I know this in my head, but I carried this person, this eternal soul in my own body, nearly lost my life being sick at the end of that pregnancy, scared to death, brought him in to this world and carefully shaping his heart and mind every day and then I just dump him at the doors of this classroom where God knows what can happen. Probably never will but it kinda scares me, like makes me feel as though I am being irresponsible. What does this MEAN?? rhetorical...
I am obviously hard wired to be a stay at home mom. What kind of FREAK would I be if I had to leave all three with someone else all day every day. Nope. Couldn't do it.
Being able to focus on the littles a few hours each day is a nice respite. Two on one is way easier than three on one, just the mere management. But still, I secretly ask myself, EVERY SINGLE day, am I doing the right thing, school and all. The better question is could I do it better myself, weighing the good and the bad, or my fears rather?
A resounding no...
Guess I just answered my own question.