Calling to me

I can feel Number Four calling to me from somewhere in heaven. I think the time is getting closer. In my mind, I would be much closer to my goal but I am inching my way there like drops in a bucket while the clock ticktocks in my conceptual ear. It's getting to be time. I just know it.
Fairy and I started 2008 with a goal to be Fine in 2009. What we thought was our path to super pre40 hotness has turned out to be God's journey for our hearts and souls. Albeit we are WAY more fit, healthy and thinner than when we started the quest, that being the ultimate goal has shifted. It is looking like our Precious Pearl may be getting married before she turns 40 which is a long standing prayer being answered. Her prince charming is someone we ALL love and adore and I think it is just a matter of time. Another close to 40 bff has found her man and all hope is born anew for us. It is truly a joy and a miracle of God's hand in their lives. And let me just say how incredibly beyond LUCKY these guys are.
But back to Numero Cuatro. Last night the Es sisters came over for a stay and Notorious and BabyEs were quite the pair. He would say "Come here Sister, You want Notorious B-I-G to hold you?" and she snuggled her little baby self back into his lap. He was thrilled and kept saying "Look Mama! A SISTER!!!"
I know life holds no guarantees. But prayer changes my heart and sometimes moves the hand of God. Sometimes. Mostly our hearts change. Suffice it to say my heart for our own Little Sister has not budged except for the longing and nearing of time to welcome a fourth is getting close.
So if you read this, and you think about us, pray. Pray whatever your heart leads you. I am praying for a girl. Because I haven't had faith like this since my brother died. I also am praying with total faith that God knows my family and sees the future and will give us what is HIS plan for our family and will adjust our hearts accordingly. I really know that now.
I guess that is all I have to say...that baby is calling to me...and may God move His hand in His time...