Thursday, September 17, 2009

Intuition

I was born with this strange sense of intuition. Made me really fearful as a child, simply because I sensed things unseen that others were oblivious to. Probably kept me out of a lot of trouble, simply because I was fearful. Once my mother realized and recognized what it was, she explained to me that it was a gift, from the Holy Spirit, and was just a gift, and a time to sense when to pray, sometimes when to get the hell out of dodge, people to avoid, and people to friend, because often I knew what was going on without actually knowing what was going on.
Now that I am older, and a tad bit wiser, I have learned to pray, intercede, cry and bawl on my face before God, sometimes for people I don't know, often for ones I know just a little. I meet someone new and these things flash in my head- Can't get pregnant. Husband is abusive. Bulimia. Afraid. Lonely. Many others...
B calls it my vampire powers. Because I tell her when I "know" something. Of course I don't reveal revealing details...especially if she has any connection to the situation. And then I tell her when I REALLY know it. Keeps me from feeling like a freak even though I know it is a gift, an entrusting of the wounded, by God, to me. And I take it very seriously.
I am certain there are those I encounter with stuff going on that I never pick up on. I have no idea why some people and issues I read so easily and some are never revealed to me. Like don't think Martha is reading your mail every time I am with you.
But you can rest assured, if I sense something, I pray without ceasing.

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