Hope

Today I am hopeful. Everything is right. It is Yaya's birthday and I am making a hummingbird cake from Magnolia Bakery in NYC. Tiny is leaning over the counter asking for bites of chopped banana that I am cutting on a beautiful plate. My apron is cute (and still clean at the moment) and Pitufo is enthralled with WiiFit while Tiny keeps a running commentary on all the ingredients going into the cake. Sometimes when I cook I just grab whatever measuring cup and spoon I touch first but today, it's for Yaya. So all my beautiful Anthro cups and measuring spoons that I use for measuring my food are coming out to add beauty to the soul going into a cake celebrating her 67 years of life.
The littles are happy and engaged. The birds are singing. The washing machine is humming, full of clothes that belong to people I love, clothes that got dirty because we were having fun, living life together.
Some days, I get overwhelmed. I have alot of weight to lose. It is a daily taking up of my cross to glorify Him in my body. Some days I do well. Other days, not so much. Keeping the house clean is also a daily process, never an event. Laundry...it never stops. Teaching my three littles how to be friends, how to live and love each other like Jesus, it is ongoing with every phase they develop. Some days, I get so tired. So overwhelmed. Sometimes hopeless. That my hosue will never be clean enough, that my body will never be the healthy weight I am working SO hard to attain, that my children won't be friends, that love won't be enough.
But today is not one of those days.
Today is full of light and hope. There is food in the fridge AND money in the bank still. The birds are singing and they don't even know I have a whole bag of bird seed waiting to be opened and poured into their feeders. All my aprons are clean and ready for fun and dirt and mess and beauty. My littles are all clean and healthy and happily engaged in pleasantness at the moment. I have hope. My heart is full. My house is happy.
Hope. I love it when you show up.
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